Empowering Your Dysfunctions
This discussion may not be for you or anyone else. It is something I feel needs to be told. I have met so many people in my life who undergo personality dysfunctions and have no way or understanding of how to get out of the hole. Well I’ve been there and know what they go through. So here’s just a small part of how I dealt and deal with it and how proper understanding of your dysfunctions can do for you ina good way.
You know what it is. Most people running a business or managing life all have the same characteristics. The body takes a beating. The mind begins to wander off towards the cuckoo’s nest. Soon you’re ready to jump off a cliff or go on some wild and nutso spree.
I’ve learned to respect all the mental lunacy and self-imposed dysfunctional madness I own and accept the fact that what I am is not the envy of everyone on this earth. If I have but one thing to say about living in the asylum it is this…
At least I know where I’ve been, where I’m at and where I’m going. Most days. Do You?
In this voyage we call life, I see so many people out there trying to be something they are not when the only absolute we have in life in to be you. Some peoples’ version of living a happy life is to imitate others or become something they;re not meant be or at least should not be. That life is an emotional high for them. Why be like the hottest celeb at the moment when in fact their life is probably so upside down that they’re likely to shatter self-image before realizing they don’t have much to offer.
Understand that no matter who or what you are now, attempting the lifestyle of another is utterly foolish. They are no better than you. Maybe in money or prestige, but that’s not necessarily the best life to chase after. Just because someone is higher on the totem pole of life does not make him or her better or more credible. Why spend all your time chasing the current fashion when it’s better go after something you can call your own.
Be yourself. Who cares what others think. I don’t and it has made my life much more bearable. If you want people to recognize you for you, become what they are not. Unique always stands out and above those running after the same old color. Being different and not afraid of the outcome (legal of course) has its own virtues that you must live by. At times you are called on to prove your point even if the opposition doesn’t know it.
Case in point…Recently, I was asked by an “authority of the court” during jury duty (what a waste of time) if I would trust a politician or law enforcement person over an ordinary civilian when it comes to credibility on the witness stand. What the F…!?
My first response was, “What makes us, the civilians, untrusting ordinary people and the politician and the law special? They are humans, not God.” I’m sure that was not what he was expecting.He just stared at me.
So I elaborated a bit while he just stood there all dumb looking…“Let’s take the civilian, the politician and the law person and sit them on the toilet, let them do their business and then we’ll see who is higher up.” Agin he was dumbfounded. Well, he asked!
My point is this; I don’t believe in giving even the higher-ups the benefit of the doubt if they think they are better than you or me. Sure, I know my limits – when to show respect and when to keep my mouth shut, but when asked I’ll cut like a knife if I have to. Why? Here’s why…
When I was growing up there was no such thing as “domestic violence” It was more “Violence for Survival.”
Hey when you are the oldest of 12 (9 when I was at home) you tend to defend yourself when shoved ina corner. We had to fight over one chicken at dinner and had to get out and hustle for anything that was a luxury back then. Dad wasn’t the type to give his kids anything but below the basic necessitities. That way of living taught me how to survive and thrive with what I got.
As I grew older and was pretty much on my own since 14 I learned hard lessons that there are forces constantly working against you and if you have no way out you either break out the weapons (mental and physical) or you run like a kitty being chased by a pack of blood thirsty dogs.
My expereinces has brought me good fortune and bad. I have no grudges just respect for life and for what it gives if you are willing to work your way into the front door.
Because I reside in my own little asylum I know what to expect from my self-inflicted wounds. If you don’t have your own corner, your own space, your own mind, you’ll never have control over your measly life. In this club you gotta find your corner because if you don’t you’ll never survive.
As a child and well into my teens, I was traumatized by my own indifference towards my Father, my Mother, my brothers, sisters, relatives and most people in general. I was and still am to a degree the misanthrope. Don’t get me wrong, I get along with others it just that I don’t play well them.
Just about everyone I came in contact with who knew of my family and what they were about had to tread lightly. Even if they didn’t know about my family and the way they were, my personality always threw up a red flag warning. I was embarrassed when the family name was mentioned during a conversation with others. If you know the reasons why then you’d understand. Let just say that some of the things they’ve done would make the Jerry Springer show look like a day at Disney.
Although certain members of my family have done every conceivable wrong to humanity, themselves and other family members, I’ve learned to make it work to my advantage. How? It is not easy to accomplish. Learning all I could about Personal Enhancement has helped but I had to figure out how to do that.
What is it, that if harnessed correctly, will give you the strength to understand and deal with guilt, depression, suicidal tendencies, mental breakdowns, violence, aggression, self-doubt, self-esteem, self-destruction, poverty, health problems, people paranoia, compulsions, failures, successes, personal and profession situations?
It’s grappling with the fact that you must understand you inner workings and know how to enhance your existence by way of driving yourself to the bitter end. Once you are there you have to go back to the start and do it all over again. That’s the only way you ver figure life out and how to handle all its diversions.
Throughout the trip you’ll suffer mental crippling diseases and emotional trauma if you don reach down deep inside, pull out your problems and deal with them with a firm hand. Because if you know and have experienced at least one of those life restricting emotional diseases mentioned above and cannot figure out how to get them off your back or at least deal with them, then you’ll never conquer your inner self.
For nearly 25 years I went through suicidal depression. During that ride I endured mental torture not know or even caring why. I thank my wife for sticking with me throughout my rough times. Without her I would not be here.
When I was at my lowest she listened and waited patiently for me to come out. I’m sure there were many times, in her mind, that I would never pull through. But I did. Although I give her credit for my recovery, she tells me that it was my strong mind that did all the work. I still go through some tiny emotional drifting but not as much.
But I often wonder about that strong mentality she talks about. Of course she does not admit that it the reason I wanted to be alive was her. My wife is my life. We’ve been married since 1976 and through all the BS she has stood by my side. I’m one of the fortunate few…I got the right one.
Getting back to that strong mental attitude, I have one because I endured life’s struggles and uphill drives. What I endured and went through in my youth was pretty tough for any kid. Once I deciphered my depression and found out why I had it, then the I was able to question the reasons and come up with answers.
Your life too may be upside down. Doesn’t matter what we go through it always helps to have someone on your side so that you will get to a day where answers come. They are there you just have to pull them out of that deep dark recess of your inner mind and slam them against the wall.
Throughout my adult life there have been so many downsides I lost count. but you know what? I would not rade them for a life full of easy living and no worry. Why? Because when you go through the bad and you live to tell about it, the good stuff is the payday.
When you undergo life that is not fair, it builds character that teaches you how to endure even worse times and gives you the internal power to drive your life to the place you and your sweetie want to be. Now go burn rubber! -Mikey www.carisms.com
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